Oh bless today.

So this morning I learned a few things.

1: Oil does not boil.

-I found this out because I thought it would be fun to make scones for breakfast! I hadn't had them forever and was craving them and just so happened to have some dough. I knew that I was supposed to flatten out the dough then place it into what I though would be "boiling oil". Well low and behold. Oil does not boil. So I sat there for a good 25 minutes waiting for the oil to boil. Then of course ran out of patience and decided to just stick in the first victim of dough... Ya... That sucker was black and I've never been splashed with such hot freaking oil in my life. Of course Oakly heard me in the kitchen say a few choice words then start to laugh. He asked what I was doing and told him I just found out that oil did not boil. He then went on his way as I made the rest of the scones. Putting each in the pot of near boiling oil. Needless to say they all turned golden brown on the outside within seconds. So i just took them out thinking "psssh directions don't know what their talking about, it doesn't take 15-30 seconds each scone it take 1 second each side." Well about 5 scones later I called Oak into start eating them. We took our first bites together into the DOUGHIEST, UNDERCOOKED scones we've ever had. I finished one and then soon felt it start to rise in my stomach. Not fun. Oakly then informed me that he had made them before (duh he's like a million years older then me, what hasn't he made?) and that he could help me make them. Within 10 minutes we then were able to eat delicious fully cooked golden scones.

Moral of the story:

1- As stated previously, oil does not boil.
2- Eating dough is not a good idea, for it rises in your stomach and makes you nauseas for hours.
3- When in doubt ask the man that lived with saber tooths and sports a duck tail. For he knows all.

^^ The enemy when consumed and not cooked ^^

He really does have a duck tail... Told ya.

Any who.

As the rest of the day has gone by I learned another thing. I should not make my own frosting for I find it way to delicious. Our primary class won a game last Sunday that we had made up for them. They won a chocolate cake with green frosting and sprinkles along with candy and apple juice. (yes we love our class, we don't want kids just yet but its a blast to play with others!)
The kiddos of course were the ones who chose what they won. As I was making the frosting minutes ago I found myself consuming more than half. I have a wonderful made up recipe of my own and not to blow smoke up my own skirt. But hell ya, its good.

Also, I love Bon Iver. Random thought for the day. However his music just calms my busy body soul. I love listening to him when I'm having my "alone time" when Oakly is off doing his thing which right now is Welding some sort of material, thing, working, machine back together for a friend. Yeah, I just know he is helping some one out with flamer welder thing. :) Ha.

Finally got our massages last night, much needed. For any of you trying to locate an amazing massage therapist for an incredible price. No need to look any further. Our dear friend Ruthanne, what a talented chick. She not only is an amazing massage therapist but she only charges $45 for a FULL hour and she comes to YOUR home to have it done. Or of course she can arrange for another place to do it if your home is not the calmest of places. But I LOVE HER. She works wonders.

Shout out to the amazing Ruthanne!! Let me know if you want to get in touch with her, for she is impeccable!

Well off to get ready for game night! Party time, excellent!!

a word of advice

so, basically its been 27 years since i've posted something on this lovely blog that no one probably follows any more. oh well, better late than never right? well all that being said there are quite a few things that need to be caught up on.

1: living in g-ville (grantsville) utah.
-first of all i thought that this would be the hardest thing on the entire planet, universe, solar system. sure i'm only 45 minutes away from salt lake, but if you know me, you know i LOATHE driving. i absolutely despise walmart and that is pretty much the only grocery store around with everything. we do have soleberges.. if you want to pay euro freaking prices. i miss my friends and family, i miss seeing different styles and i miss diversity. however, all that being said. i love this little town. i love my house and my new friends i am making. i love our tiny ward that is full of geriatric patients. i love walking into a store and knowing everyone there. i love having my husband waive at every single car that passes by because he knows them, or their cousin, or their cousins friends dog twice removed. everyone is so friendly, just the other day Oak and i went to breakfast and low and behold it was paid for by his mom's friend. who does that?? i live by and work with the best people ever. if you want a real small town where anyone would do anything for you and loves you for who you are no judgement. come to g-ville.

2: of course being married. the one question you will get for the rest of your life once you tie the knot... just so all ya'll know. "how's married life" will soon become one of the most frequently asked questions. one of these times i'm just going to reply with "married life? i'm married?!!" or "he tells me not to talk about it, oh no!!! HERE HE COMES!!" just to spice it up a bit from the normal. 'its great, i love it." which is true. i honestly was expecting it to be much harder. so far its been a walk in the park even with all the ishnit that has been thrown our direction. i can honestly say that oak is the best thing that has ever happened to me. i love him more and more each day and we are always having a blast together! i seriously married my best friend. he "completes me" if you will. gooey, now that all the fun lovey, gooey, dovey stuff is out of the way on to the next!

in Sun Valley, being dorks as always!

ugly sweater Christmas party anyone??



Haha, this is Oakly playing the kinect we got for our 6 month anniversary. that sucker is so much fun!! anyway, told you we had fun we're like 5 years old every day.

3: job. i work at overstock.com. and surprisingly like it. i've gotten a few promotions and i've only worked there for a few months which has been great. i get to start working from home this month and i'm super excited about that. Oak still works at the lovely complex. i get to feel like a princess whenever i go there, free this free that, "OH you're OAKLY'S wife??" that kind of stuff. you know its a normal paparazzi. not. but sorta. without the cameras. anyway, its cool. and of course the cowboy part of his life. he probably doesn't know this due to the fact that i basically cry my eyes out every time he has to go to a rodeo and leave me home alone for just short of a week. but i love it. i LOVE that i'm married to a cowboy. it took some getting used to, but he is the hardest worker ever. i will never have to worry about getting him motivated. he does it all on his own. i know that our bills will be paid and that we can have fun to! i love the security of that. i also love when he wears his cowboys apparel, talk about smokin' hot. random, but seriously i'll post some pictures.

4: house. i absolutely love my house, i love doing work on our basement, i love decorating. i love the feel of it, i love that the spirit is here, i love that we host every blood sucking party known to man. i love that its clean and organized.i love the smell of it. i love the way it looks with Christmas lights and decorated for holidays. i love my house. period. it feels good to come or be home when your sick, i get excited to come home and relax. i love that things are almost always in the right place. (we both lose things we're human). i love fixing up our basement (stated previously) together. we are currently working on the bathroom and so far going quite a bit quicker than we thought, the whole fun side should be finished by flippin' summer. which i think is super exciting. hey you, friends that are reading this and haven't come to play, get your butts out here to g-villey at least by summer time. its going to be a pizarty. anyways i also love my kitchen and cooking for Oak in my kitchen which brings me to my next point.

doesn't look like much, but it is. ha, we'll keep ya updated.

5: cooking. ok, so never have i ever really cooked. when i have it has been a small amount here and there under severe serveilence..(i do not know how to spell that) from my mother. and i was ok at it. never really had an issue following recipes or what not. however, now that i've discovered Si Fosters blog "a bountiful kitchen". every single frickin' day i'm on that sucker looking at her amazing recipes. and for the most part they aren't that hard. some are time consuming but hey to make a good meal takes time! i love cooking and Oakly likes my cooking and is starting to show it a bit. ha, not really but he thinks so. and i even got a compliment and recipe steal from my mother in law... that is sayin' something isn't it??



any way, this is the 5 updates for today. i've been a bit sicky so i best be getting some rest. i forgot how much i loved to blog, hm... i promise i'll be better.

oh ps. shout out to Brookie Foster. thank you for getting on me about my blogging, i forgot how much i liked it and am going to be better at it.thank you for the word of advise. any who.. enjoy the pictures!! love you all!

clocks

time has flown this year. i remember going sledding with my then great life crush Oakly. running around tackling each other in the lovely january snow. meeting his nieces and nephews and falling in love with each of them. realizing that maybe this crush was turning into more. skipping ahead now we've been married for nearly 2 months. they haven't been easy months. but when have Oakly and i decided to let things be easy? each time i look at a clock my heart skips a beat... its already that time?? its already that day? its already been 2 months? summer is nearly over and i feel that i'm just ready to have it start. why have i let time fly by so quickly? why do clocks determine my life? wake up at 7:00 be ready to leave at 8:15 be to work by 9:00... time... clocks. who decided to let us be run by time? i mean i understand the reasoning of time and of order... however, what ever happend to this moment? this time right now? in all reality that is all we have. this moment this time. we aren't promised anything more or anything less. this moment is our life. this choice, this word, this emotion. why do so many of us concentrate on what will be or what will happen when all we have is right now. why not focus on right now. make more concious decisions now that will lead us to what we so desire. every single thing i do within this moment decides my future decides a little more of the outcome of my life. this thought. i don't have five minutes from now for that does not exist.. i do not have 5 minutes ago for that no longer exists.. all i have is now. and i'm going to make the best of it. so why clocks?

beautiful

challanges that we go through may impact us or they may not. depending on our attitude and our out look on life we are the ulitmate deciders on this. we choose our life. i choose my life. this past month has taught me alot. i've learned that i can let something get to me, hurt me, stress me out or i can choose to be happy. i choose to remember that life is beautiful. that each challange that comes my way is beautiful. i am genuinely grateful for everything that has ever happened to me in my life. i've grown from it. i've learned from it. and i've created who i am from each one. i love who i am today and i am grateful to all those challanges that have impacted who i am. life is beautiful. always remember that.

yup.

blog.... bloggy... blogger.. bloooger... blogggg... blooooOg.

well.. to be honest, i don't know what to write. writers bloggy block if you will. i have a lot to say, a lot i'm thinking about but nothing that really draws my fingers attention. click... click...

hm... remember the days when we were just able to sit on the front porch in the summer. popsicle in hand and just gaze at the sky as the gooey red, green, purple, or orange dripped all down our fingers into our laps... running through sprinklers, rolling down grassy hills. playing with chalk. dancing around in circles. getting dizzy and falling to the ground only to gaze into the beautiful sky and make shapes and stories out of clouds.
innocence.
i swear i am not that old. and yet i see a drastic change in the future generations that follow me. where i was dancing, running and playing outside those who follow behind me are staying inside. collecting dust. playing video games and running from our beautiful sun. its so sad to me. i don't understand the immense change that has occurred and it frightens me for even future generations. thus i feel the desire to make a stand. to stand for the health of children, the innocence, the playfulness, the laughter, the joy and the beauty of children. to see colorful side walks of chalk. to watch and join as kids roll down numerous hills of freshly cut grass. i stand to not let my innocence and my child-like soul dwindle in the darkness of stress, anger, adult-hood. i stand to allow children to be children. to sing, to pretend, to jump on trampolines, to ride bikes, to paint, to PLAY. i stand to always remember my inner-child. to embrace her and love her and to inspire others to do the same. to inspire children to be children. to love them for who they are and to allow them to be their selves. i stand for their safety, i stand for their love, and i stand for innocence.

thoughts, feelings, emotions.

i love garden gnomes, for no reason at all... they just make me so happy.
i love to watch people they are so peculiar. i just want to get to know them, their story, their life... so fascinating to me.
i love to eat ice cream.. any type, any flavor, any time.
i am my own worst critic... its something that is always a work in progress for me..
i love being outside, anything to do outside i'm there.
i love rock climbing, i love heights, i love that i am the only one that is keeping me from falling, i love that control and that rush.
i swear i am a 5 year old trapped in a 20 year old body
i love catching bugs and lizards..
mice creep me out
if you want to torture me, tickle me.
i love going on walks and holding hands
love chalk.
i like to doodle and write random things
i love my chubber nephew landon
and i love all my new little nieces and nephews.
i think probably every second of every day... my mind is always racing but its about crazy weird things that are super deep. ha its fun.
water. love it.
i love to learn things.
i love to teach things.
i love vacations
i love learning new languages.
getting married freaks me out. but i am so excited for it.
i like to feel how sharp my teeth are with my tongue.
i hate being rushed.
i love little things.
i really dislike having to conform.
the feel of meat makes me sick.
but i love to watch surgeries being performed...
i love antiques. always have. i love to rummage through my grandpas random items that he has kept for the past million years, in fact i am using them to decorate our new house!
i love leaves...
i love grass.
feathers make me happy.
i love white tables and cabinets and things
i love all colors really, but recently its been more blues and greens and such.
the sun in my paradise.
i love yard work. planting flowers, mowing lawns, weeding, gardening. love it.
i have always been a hard worker, but i tend to take everything on myself.
i hate being told i'm wrong but i claim to love bluntness.
i am sensitive.
i pray probably every 10 minutes in a day.
i love animals.
i love when i wake up to birds singing
i love birds, how free they seem to be just flying around being all cheerful and such.
i love church, i am so grateful for my amazing ward and i am so grateful for the impact that it has made on my life.
i love decorating and getting new ideas that no one else has :)
i am grateful that i can now catch myself when i am being a nerd.
i love deep conversations.
eye contact.
i love all of Oakly's little quirks and things.. even the things that piss me off most i love.
i love kids. love... them..
i love being tan.
i love running
i love hiking and fishing and swimming
i am scared of failure.
i am scared to hurt anyone.
i'm some times way scared of the dark.
i love when people smile randomly
i love connecting with people
i like to go grocery shopping
i love close friends
i love spending time with my family
i love life.

i am

so many times i forget who i am. i dwell on things that i'm not, let them eat at me. hurt me. and i pull those around me down with this darkness that i allow to surround my being. that dark place is not me. i know who i am. i am light-hearted, caring, genuine, loving, free, peaceful, accepting, authentic, beautiful, worthy, joyful, innocent just to say the very least... i am good enough. i am enough. i am loved. i am love. i am beautiful and i am so much more. i strive to no longer dwell on what i am not. and to accept those imperfections that i do have. i get to remind myself what i AM and why i am thus:

i am free.
because i accept. because i let go of the past and engage myself into the now. i am free because i give up my sorrows to the lord. because i am free of hate, sadness, hurt, unworthiness. because i choose to love. because i choose joy. because i choose to be in a happy relationship. i am free because i choose to be child-like. because i choose me.

i am loving.
because i love. because i am loved. because i accept all those surrounding me. i am loving because i love myself. because i love my family. because i love Oakly. i am loving because my savior Jesus Christ loves me and my holy Father in Heaven loves me. because i am peaceful and create security for those around me. i am loving because i care and genuinely love people, all people. i am loving because i am love.

i am worthy.
i am worthy because i am good enough. because i fight evils every day. because i strive to do what is right. because i pray. because i believe. i am worthy because i let go, i forgive, i live. i am worthy because i am imperfect and i recognize my imperfections. i am worthy because i know that i am loved. i am worthy because i am a daughter of God. i am worthy because i give my whole heart to my savior and redeemer. i am worthy because i love myself. i know i am worth it. i am worthy and i am ready.

i know that i am a free, loving, worthy women. and i know that by sharing my gifts i create a world full of abundance, love, innocence, joy, freedom, beauty, purity and worth. i am these things. i create these things. and i am.