could this be?

every morning i breathe. every second i see. i am able to be free. free in a world of anger and hate. free of my own emancipated state. can love set us free? or will it tie us down. i had wings. they've disappeared into the sea of crimson tears my heart has let free. free fall. down. down where my very soul refuses to go. should i stay. or will i go. listening for answers. listening for the minnows cry. which will it be? could it be that this is perfect for me. this time in life. this sorrow and strife. family, where have you been. the haunt has started. which side will win. the wolves that feed on anger and hurt. the sparrows that spread joy and self worth. each their own. each their own. shaking, shivering, leaving. down in a cold dark well. watching the sun rise above. each choice every step decides. could it be? which side?

as the bird sang

writing lyrics is how I power through what's going on in my life that is difficult at that particular time. It's my own personal therapy. First publicly posted.. bless my heart what am I thinking?

I fell into a spin
when I first met you
my mind told me no
but my heart flew

I try to catch my breathe
but you've stolen it
you are the sunset
and I'm the one thats chasing it

Chorus:
sunrise and moonlight
you're always on my mind
plastic hearts and fake wine
my hearts beats in time

I sing my story
the bird in the tree
you're the fox
that burrows beneath

I hold my breathe
as I look your way
your minds running
it's going astray

Chorus:
sunrise and moonlight
you're always on my mind
plastic hearts and fake wine
my heart beats in time

your perfect smile
and touch of your lips
poisons my heart
with every kiss

as time passes by
should I wait
your broken heart
is still in pain

Chorus:
sunrise and moonlight
you're always on my mind
plastic hearts and fake wine
my heart beats in time

are we can empty canvas
ready for paint
or a dying portrait
with colors so faint

should I stay
should I go
my mind tells me yes
but my heart tells me no

dear keys.

well... being one of the last people to have a blog in our entire Earth's population is awkward. I figure that I may as well just jump right on the band wagon and join the fiesta. since I've never been one to sit on a computer and dispense all my thoughts and emotions onto its keys this should be an epic experience for me.

first thought of it all; like every single being on this planet I find myself feeling the frustrations of the world around me, family life, school, work, friends, etc... however, I have been able to come to the beautiful knowledge that these are but small moments in time that will come to pass and that my life will be far more meaningful because of them. with out our trials and devastating experiences that we have in life who are we? the danger of not finding ones self during this journey is vast and horrifying. image never truly knowing yourself. never being able to grow onward and upward towards our perfect selves because we didn't know what that was or because we weren't able to have those experiences that make us who we are. the trials and tribulations that have come to past in my life are so minuscule compared to those of others, yet they change me. for the better or for the worse and I get to decide which way. how great is that? we are in charge of our own happiness. whether we are miserable because of our hardships or we choose to grow from them. to reach our perfect selves and our true happiness or let our lives dwindle and waste away in disbelief. this life is beautiful. our life venture is great and marvelous. we just need to come to that realization. I’m so grateful that I have, I just hope and pray that others close to me will.