ah ha moment #1....

i must have been swimming in the ocean of epiphanies today, it seemed as if they just kept flooding into my heart and head like mexican food floods to your arteries and hips... bless it. So one of the huge ah ha moments i had today was while i was in a bless-ed meeting with the bish... i've been reading two very great books that i definitely recommend, one being 'the miracle of forgiveness' by spencer w. kimball and the other being 'believing christ' by stephen e. robinson. both very, very amazing books. however having said that in my own opinion the miracle of forgiveness is knowledge, and believing christ gives you hope for that knowledge. you'd know what i mean if you read them... ANYWAY. on page 8 in 'believing christ' it states "it doesn't matter what you did. whatever it was, no matter how horrible or vile, is not the issue. the issue here is that whatever your sin was or is, i can erase it, i can clean you up and make you innocent, pure, and worthy, and i can do it today; i can do it now." holy cow. the atonement is so strong and i can seriously use it for anything, yet i take it for granted. yet how much our heavenly father loves us. he is so willing to forget and erase any sin that we have no matter how small or large it is. it was so humbling to me. the love of god is so pure that really he is always going to love us. no matter what. he loves us. i take for granted so much that i am blessed with every waking moment and yet he continues to bless me. i can only imagine what kind of blessings i could receive from him if i were to acknowledge every one that i already have. another thing that i take for granted are the gifts that i have. all of my talents and abilities that i share with the world, or that i hide. either way i have them. i have been blessed with a lot of them yet i shy away when others seek to be graced by them... nuts.. why hide a beautiful thing that the lord has so gracefully given me?? he is proud of his creation, me, and that includes everything that is in me. yet i hide some of them... hm... crazy right? any way... i just was overwhelmed when i realized that i can not even comprehend how much my father in heaven loves sinful me. each curve ball in life is just a sign that he knows i can handle it and he believes in my strength and ability. i am strong and have done, and am doing amazing things in life with his help. i love my savior with all my heart and i really am so grateful to him for every single thing in my life. yay for love, joy, innocence, and worth!!