ever had one of those "ouch, thank you" moments? I share a love hate relationship with them. yesterday I was provided the opportunity to receive one. Aunt flow came to visit me yesterday (no, I'm not one of those sickos that goes into detail about it) and I literally turned into a crazy person. I never in my life have been so... well... crazy! and not the good kind of crazy. I recognized myself just really being a complete beee-yotch to my wonderful husband who did absolutely nothing wrong!! and you know what? part of me felt like I just didn't care and I wanted to be that way and the other part was saying "Holy Hell Tiana, what in the world is your problem??!!" of course the latter grew to be victorious which was awesome however, it really made me look into myself to see what the heck was going on? I didn't like me that way...at. all. why did I continue to act like that? The whole day I had been craving compliments from Oak because I truly was not my number one fan. thus I realized that i was living off of the love Oakly has for me to fill the love i didn't so much have for myself yesterday. so as I looked back I realized, wow. I am so happy that I was able to learn about this. I was a crazy phsychotic person for a bit and I hated it and I hated that it was pointed out (the ouch) and then the thank you, i never, ever, ever, ever, ever, will act like that again. i am a beautiful person. i am a loving person. i am a happy person. though i know that i can be other things, i choose to be the person i truly am. i love me, i love my hubby, i love my life and i love everything about it. i am amazing and i am joyful and i am kind. so if ever you have one of those times were you can honestly look back and say wow, why in the world? or if you feel regret, rather than feel that cope with what you are unhappy with and learn from it.
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